I am obese. It stung a little to type that. I haven't always been overweight, but I've never been "skinny" either. Up until my Sophomore year of college, I was an athlete. I've always played sports, and at one time, I could down two whoppers and not gain an ounce. I quit playing sports partially because I was busy with school but mostly because sports took time away from my first serious relationship. We broke up, but I didn't abandon my new sedentary glutinous lifestyle. After college, I decided to lose some weight and dropped about 30 pounds on Weight Watchers. It didn't last. I quit Weight Watchers and the pounds pilled on. I weighed about 200 pounds when I met my husband 6 1/2 years ago. I weighed about 228 pounds when I married him 5 years ago. I weighed 250 pounds when I got pregnant with our first son 3 1/2 years ago and today, after two babies, I weigh 262 pounds.
Lately, I've felt very convicted about the weight. I've tried so many times to start diets in the last few years, but they never last and my self control is nearly non-existent. That's going to change now. I'm more determined than ever. This sin in my life has to go. I need to be healthy for myself and for my family, but also because it's what God wants for me. He gave me this one body to use and I've been destroying it. I am a 30 year old type II diabetic. Lately, I've even noticed my knees are starting to hurt.
I recently came across a book by two sisters called Trim Healthy Mama. It struck a chord with me because they are believers, but also because they talk a lot about blood sugar control which is something I know I need help with. I ordered the book today and plan to read it as soon as I get it. I've read overviews, and it seems to be a plan that I can really stick with as a lifestyle change. I told my husband about my new determination. He's heard similar things from me before. In the past, he has been very supportive, but I think he's lost confidence in my ability to stick with anything. I think that may be what hurts the most. I've failed so many times, he can't help but assume it's going to happen again.
So, this blog is for me. It's going to be my diary through this journey. I have a long way to go, but it has to have a starting point somewhere.
